FTTMY after my study in year 2010??

After this sem, i'll be graduate.. What am i going to do? How is my future??? FTTMY or just go back to Sibu help my bro? I really dunno. This morning one sis told me tat we go FTTMY is to see our heart not because of i have been declare that when i'm goin to FTTMY or just because of some person... I really dunno whether i got heart for FTTMY... i really dunno... If i no heart but still go, am i wasting my time? Oh Lord Jesus... Do talk to me... I really dunno how am i goin to do? 29/3 will be the deadline for FTTMY... i dunno how... GO OR DUN GO....?? i really dunno.....